It's crazy how you can get when you really love someone and you've to just let it go.
It's crazy how you can get when you really miss someone until you feel so weak, you just want to die.
It's crazy how you can get when you really went out of control cause of someone you really love.
It's crazy how you can get when you disappoint the important people in your life cause of one love story you're so crazy about.

It isn't just about how much tears.
It isn't just about how much pain.
It's just what you have to do when you love someone so much, and to avoid him from much more greater pain later on. And because of that, you had to be bold enough to make that decision.

Had long long talk with mum yesterday and just now.
I know her so well, I know that she knows what I've been doing behind her back lately.
And when she say she saw everything, images of everything I've been doing and lying to her, she told me she was disappointed. Yes, my mum aint like any other mum. Because of my history and background, my family isnt something to play arnd with nor is it easy to get pass. And yes, it's freaky to you guys that she's able to know stuff without people telling her.

When she say, there wouldnt be any forgiveness for anyone who causes me to change; lie and start doing bad stuff bhind her back/knowledge and such many more, it scared me shitx. Cause I've seen so many instances when she say that, mainly stories and all. And it fears me that anything will happen to that one person I love. So I've to let it go. I love him too much to see him go through those.

I love him. I love him. Sometimes, I just want to smack myself, my mum told me, ''You got yourself stuck in the whole situation, the feeling of confusion, insecureness. " Say, I really want to run away. But I've to pull through and learn, that love dsnt exist with only happiness. There's always have to be sacrifices.

Sometimes, you just cant get what you want.