Baby, I'm confused.

Sunday, November 9, 2008 Y 2:53 AM

Haha, cute right ?
Monster . Oh, I drew this when I just bought a foolscap.
There was one sheet of simply blank paper.
So I just drew that.

"I miss my -thepicture-

Always.

Forever."

Yep yep. I drew tt. Still have it with me.

Really. Oh shit. I rmb all the shitx now.

How much I cried. Non stop. My face so pale.

Tt was on 4 July.

Oh yeah, people say, smile too much and you'll have to cry later.

It's really true. Sometimes, I'm just scared to smile already.

And I still rmb how the name Monster came about.

On the night, couldnt sleep.

Was txting so yeah. Oh Monster ate so much.

So much that he forgot to ask me too.

And I still rmb the day bfore the second time I emo-ed like shit.

It was a Thurs! I alwz meet Monster on Thurs.

Well, most of the time. Haha. And Monster sang, I almst fell asleep.

Cause I was sick tt time. And we saw apek with shit on his pants.

HAHAHA. Then I ran back, ran back to class.

Where have you been ?

Toilet cher.

WAHAHAHHAHA.

20 mins late. How abt tt.

And the next few days, I only knew.

I only knew. And I miss Monster so much.

And I still rmb the day, the period of time I got really sick.

That whole week was just up and down fever.

And on the Friday, somewhere in my heart, I wished to see Monster.

I almost gave up. Cause there was no way our paths would clash tt day.

But, I was in the MRT, when I saw him waiting at the platform.

Oh, I was so happy. And yes, that was the last day. My fever just ceased like tt.

Poof !

But Monster, being a monster, do sometimes draw a frown on my face.

Yeah, then the day after, it's always a sorry.

And I never failed to forgive.

Cause I've just seen so many of him.

So many. Too many.

Oh, and he's sweet too. SugarMons. Nice.

Ahaha. Well, Sugar represent the very very very best part of Monster.

Yeap, very very very best that I like.

But now, everything is just gone.

Not really everything but to me, I just dont see him being Sugar anymore.

Like, Monster's just being Monster now.

No more Sugar to me. I dont know why.

Patience, one thing maybe all monsters lack.

I just dont know.

Sometimes, I would fall for Monster.

Sometimes, he would just make me think that he's an asshole.

If only he knows what does patience means, I wont suffer missing him so much.

Till I talked in sleep, till I sleeptxted him.

Am I still your best friend ? Am I still your first priority ?

I just wished. I could rewind time. And make it right.

So I dont suffer too much.

Too much.

Monster loves green. Tt's why this post is in green. :')

I'm still missing you. It takes time to heal.

The Monster I knew and the Sugar I miss